Has there ever been a time where you feel like your not wanted in this world or just don't want to live in this world anymore?

With me, when my girlfriend died 2 years ago, I used to think I was never wanted after that and that I should just end my life. But thanks to my friends at school and a few friends on here I have been able to modivate myself and just live on. :3

Ah, then you have to be a very strong and lovely person, Axel. You have my respect.

Well, it's not like I am not wanted. I don't care if I am. Doesn't matter to me...But sure, I wanted to vanish from this world many times. Last 2 years have been pain for me and I have wished for many bad things to happen... Waking up without a reason to live is crap XD
Though I think, my so-called "problems" aren't that bad or serious, nothing like death.... It's just...I am too weak to handle simple problems,,,like I can't accept the fact that somebody left. And I have to learn to live with that and enjoy my life asap, otherwise I could give up everything and do something VERRRRRY stupid. :3

axel_flame wrote:Has there ever been a time where you feel like your not wanted in this world or just don't want to live in this world anymore?

With me, when my girlfriend died 2 years ago, I used to think I was never wanted after that and that I should just end my life. But thanks to my friends at school and a few friends on here I have been able to modivate myself and just live on. :3

I can't say I understand how you feel, cause I've never been through something like that..However, It's been 9 years since everyday I'm waking up, I know that no matter what, it'll be crap, I always end up being too much somewhere, and in that place people make me feel like I'm too much...That feeling is the worst in the world..it's shameful, to a point where even one's worst regret seems like nothing when he faces the fact that he is unwanted.

I thought of it lots of times..

On my birthday (2009) my dad just brazenly told me that I don't deserve to be happy on my birthday. I don't deserve to have a happy birthday.. I don't even recall him greeting me on my birthday.
It hurt so much. I cried and cried in my room.

I was even told so many times by my parents that they wish I wasn't born.. they tell me I'm a burden.

Maybe they are right. I'm useless and worthless.. I often wish I never existed.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! *Kills Rezzy's parents* How dare you say that to my Rezzy!! For the record, Rezzy/Nance is 1 of my best friends, her happieness is of utmost importance to me! WUV U REZZY!!

as for me, I have been battling clinical depression for 10yrs, I think it hit it's peak in '03 when I attempted suicide, I just held 1 of my swords to my wrist and was abt to do it when Dohjia(R.I.P.) came and nudged the sword out of my hand

OH no nancie, well what a sad topic this is.

Anywho i have all the reason to not be depressed about life, but just that alone is depressing me, im my own demon so to say.

I feel unwanted everyday, the world hates me, i should end it all YADA YADA. But maybe im seeing things through my own point of view.... maybe its what the worlds worth to me... just like some rotten forgotten potato or something.

I have waves of depression coming every now and then, and each time they come, they're getting worst, and even harder to handle than before.

But press on, move forward... only way to go is up when the ground beneath you begins to crumble.

Float... i wanna float ><

Nance wrote:I thought of it lots of times..

On my birthday (2009) my dad just brazenly told me that I don't deserve to be happy on my birthday. I don't deserve to have a happy birthday.. I don't even recall him greeting me on my birthday.
It hurt so much. I cried and cried in my room.

I was even told so many times by my parents that they wish I wasn't born.. they tell me I'm a burden.

Maybe they are right. I'm useless and worthless.. I often wish I never existed.

OMG, they don't deserve to have such a great person as a daughter then. If they call you that, then why did the have [bad word] to begin with? I mean, they knew they were going to have a child if they would have [bad word] but, your not a burden, don't let anyone tell you that. You have many friends here who will say the same thing. *looks at Nachos*

AXel's right, NEVER think like that, ur not a burden or unwanted, u've been with me since I 1st went on BA, I couldn't ask for a better friend! *hugs Rezzy*

Thanks guys *sniff* you're all the best. I wish I could just live here *hugs all of you*

I hope you all guys get rid of your depressions and be happy!

I once tried suicide. We were driving on the highway..My mom was blabbering at the car, she says the meanest things in the world. So yea, I couldn't take it anymore, I jumped out of the car hoping I would get ran over but the stupid cars stopped before they could hit me >_<

She treats us like her slave (really really like a slave) and that we should follow her just because she's the one who works and spends money on us. Just last night, she was blabbering again. She even threw something at my sister's face.. she got a big black eye and her eye keeps bleeding. She even beat my brother his morning.. and she told me this morning that she might kill one of us >_<

Doctors say depression and complicated bipolarity runs in our family.. I'm beginning to see the symptoms in her. I hope she doesn't become like her brother and sister. My mom's brother stabbed her wife. And my aunt beats the crap out of anyone she sees, even strangers, she's in some mental institution right now. o.o

I really wish I didn't exist at all lol
I know my parents work hard and I appreciate that. I just hope they appreciate me too.. T_T

that was a bit long... gomen xD

"I really wish I didn't exist at all"

*Slaps Rezzy with Ruru's rotten fish* NEVER SAY THAT!!!!

Sorry, but your mom is a F'N psychopath!! You really need to get away from there, I wish I could come rescue you, you could live with me and Emma *Ebil pervy grin*XD

Don't worry Rezzy, you'll get thru this I believe in you!! *hugs*